me encanta espana.

17 April
I’m home from Spain and I don’t want to be.

I loved it. Obviously I can’t tell you every little detail from the trip, so lets just say:

I had a ton of fun.
I loved Nancy (one of the chaperone’s) and I miss her.
Kris is kind of a moody bitch but that didn’t ruin anything.
I loved the group I traveled with.
Eight of us got really close and I hope we all hang out outside of Spain.
I liked the small towns better than Madrid.
I loved the narrow streets.
Shopping in Madrid wasn’t very exciting because it was all stuff you could buy at Forever 21.
I saw Columbus’ and Charles V’s tombs.
I loved Toledo and Mijas the most.
I got lost a lot.
We saw a lot of churches and palaces.
Every building was gorgeous.
Our tour guide, Nieves, was really nice and cute.
Bye bye British accents, I now love Spanish accents.
Everyone in our group got sick at one point, whether it was throwing up or just a cold.
I didn’t like Seville, too dirty and crowded and I had a bad getting lost experience there.
Being there during Holy Week (Semana Santa or Santa Semana? I forget.) was interesting but hectic.
It made me want to take more Spanish classes but realize how hard it would be to study abroad there.
Sangria is yummy.
It’s so cool being able to buy and order alcohol.
It was also cool seeing my name a lot.
Our tour bus was way too cold.
Granada was a good change after Seville.
Charla & I got left behind in Granada but we had an adventure and found our group.
I tried squid, shrimp, and octopus and all of them were gross but I’m proud of myself for trying them.
I got a little burnt/tan but I don’t know if people other than me can tell.
I went in the Mediterranean.
There were lots of flowers everywhere and they smelled really good.
There were two things I did (almost) every day: went to either a church or palace and drank some sort of alcohol.
The beach on the Costa del Sol was beautiful.
It was a long ride back.
I really miss it.
I miss Nancy and all the girls I was with.
It feels weird to have nothing to do and to be home and to not be with all those people.
I do NOT want to go back to school or do any of the work I need to do to catch up.


home alone

31 March
The only interesting things that happened today all had to do with school …

Had a test in pre-calc. I think it went well. I checked all my answers about 239,487 times, so I better have done well.

In Chemistry we got our tests from last week back. It was the one where I wasn’t sure I was ready to take it, and I had my mom write me a note saying I could be excused from Chemistry in case I decided I wasn’t ready yet. But I ended up just going because I wanted to get it over with. And guess who got the highest grade in the class? Can you believe that?! Me and Claire (a girl in my class who is really smart and really nice) tied for the highest score, an 87%. So we set the curve. He added 12% to everyone’s grade, so mine is 99% now! Yay, that made me really happy.

In APUSH we got an in-class DBQ we wrote awhile ago back. I got a 6 (out of 9 for the AP scale) which is good. For that class, I usually consider a 6 good enough. If I get a 7 or an 8 I’m really happy. And if I [ever] get a 9, I’d be … ecstatic. Below a 6 isn’t so good, and I was afraid I was going to get a 4 or a 5, so I’m happy with my 6. She wrote some good constructive criticism on there too, so that’s good.

Then we got our quizzes from last Friday back. I got 18/20, which is good. But it made my grade in the class go DOWN. Because before this we had only had one test and I got 100% on it, so my grade in the test/quiz category was 100%. Now it’s … not. But I still have a good grade.

Yep. So all of that stuff was pretty good news.

All the classes were short today because we had a pep assembly at the end of the day. It was pretty good, I thought.

Oh geez. So erm … Kristen went out to a bar last night. And my parents are out of town so it was just me home. It was scary. 😦

Anyway, I expected Kristen to get home at like 2 or 3, because that’s when she usually gets home. And she said she would be coming home.

But I couldn’t sleep very well. Probably because I was stressed out and I hate being home alone at night. Especially at my house. We have these huge windows that cover up the whole wall in the family room. So if the lights are on inside and it’s dark outside, people can see in and I can’t see out. That just really creeps me out. I’m always afraid a scary face is just going to pop up or something. I swear I should be like a scary-movie director, I think of the weirdest things when I’m scared.

Anyway, I kept waking up and looking out my window to see if she was home yet. Around 2 and again around 3 I kept waking up. She wasn’t home yet but I was thinking she would be soon because the bars close at 2.

Then I fell asleep until again until like 5. I woke up and looked outside and she STILL wasn’t home. So then I got kind of worried. I just didn’t know where she was/why she wouldn’t call or something.

I texted her but she didn’t respond. I couldn’t really go back to sleep which sucks. I got up at 6:15 to start getting ready and I called her and she didn’t answer or call back.

So I was just worried throughout the whole morning …

Then at the beginning of finance she texted me and said “I’m fine :)” but I still didn’t know where she was. Called her at break and turns out she spent the night at a friend’s because she got tired/too drunk to drive home.

I’m glad she’s okay. I told my mom and my mom said they will have to have a talk about her “responsibilities in the family” because my mom asked her to stay home with me while they were out of town but she hasn’t really been taking care of me.

And I told Dahlia too, who’s over right now but in the shower, and she had the same reaction as my mom. They both seem really disappointed in Kristen or something. I guess I understand that but I’m not like mad at her.

Anyway. I better go do some homework. I have a lot this weekend.

How can so many bad things happen to one person and none to other people?

30 March
I really don’t feel like doing anything right now. So I’ll write about my life…

Hmm. This week has been pretty stressful. As usual, I guess.

I got a D (9/15) on a pre-calc quiz I had to take last Friday. So that’s just GREAT. I still have an A in the class, but it’s a lower A now, and we have a huge test tomorrow so I have to do good on it. =\

But I left my math book at school so darn … can’t study!

Geez I’m turning into a slacker.

But at least I got an 18/20 on my APUSH quiz. But it made my grade go DOWN, because before I had 100% in the test/quiz category, and now I don’t. But I still have a really good grade for it being APUSH.

American Idol last night: I LIKED LISA. I thought she was really good in the Top 24 round, but she hasn’t been as good in the Top 12.

She is still better than Ace, Bucky, and Kellie though! THEY AREN’T EVEN THAT GOOD. For Ace and Kellie, America is just voting on looks and that is not what it’s about. They aren’t even that good of singers and I’m afraid they’re going to stay around way longer than they should.

And for Bucky … America obviously isn’t voting on looks for him. But I actually do enjoy watching him, especially this week, I thought it was one of his best performances. But I don’t think he’s better than Lisa can be.

Ah well … I guess this happens every year.

I’m kind of bored by AI. Not that the contestants aren’t good, because they are, and not that Paula hasn’t been … entertaining (?) to watch … because she has … but I’m just losing interest in general. Which makes me a little sad.

Yesterday was my last day of tutoring. YAY. I liked it and it was a good experience and everything, but I just got sick of it. So I’m done now.

Today I had a mock interview for Academy of Finance. It was at an employment agency.

It went well, I think. It doesn’t matter for anything, just for practice. Except if they decide to hire an intern this summer and I apply, they might be more inclined to hire me because they knew me from before.

Because it was a mock interview, she gave me critique. She said I did very well. She said I had good eye contact but drifted a little. Oh well. I don’t like to stare people down. And she also said I was playing with my hands, which I was. I hate stuff like this though … I don’t think it should matter.

About my answers, she said they were good and thorough and everything. The only thing she said was sometimes she didn’t know what I was saying. I don’t know if she meant like I was mumbling or she didn’t know what my point was. Either way, she didn’t seem to think it was that big of a deal. I think it only happened on like one question.

So yeah, I’m relieved that’s over!

Last night I was having a breakdown practically, though.

Not really … just, you know, PMS and stress and everything.

My mom’s out of town, and I miss her. 😦 She’s been gone so much recently. One week in February skiing, one-and-a-half week in March skiing, and now a half a week in Palm Springs for business. But after this she won’t be leaving for awhile, until like the end of May.

I had to prepare for my interview, so I wanted someone to go over questions I could be asked with me, and help me edit my resume and cover letter and references, and help me decide what to wear, and how to get there, and all that stuff. It just would’ve been a lot easier if she was here.

I tried to have Kristen help me but she wasn’t very helpful. She would like answer one question I had and then walk away, assuming I didn’t have more to talk about but I did. I hate it when people do that.

Also, yesterday Dahlia found out that her mom might have lung cancer. She went to the doctor because she kept coughing, and they found a mass in her lung that might be cancerous. I think she is going to find out on Friday (tomorrow). Which also happens to be the anniversary of the day Dahlia’s brother died (he was shot by the police).

I had really mixed reactions about this. I obviously felt bad for her. What a week. What a LIFE, actually. So many bad things have happened to her and she has had such a hard life. It just doesn’t seem equal.

Let’s see. Her dad isn’t around. Her older sister has been into drugs, and has a kid who is Dahlia’s age. So like, Dahlia’s sister and Dahlia’s mom were having babies at the same time. Both Dahlia’s sister and Dahlia’s mom are in a lot of debt and don’t really have steady jobs to live on. One of Dahlia’s brothers is in jail and has been for awhile now for stealing. Her other brother was shot by the police like 7 years ago and died. The police shot him by mistake though, they thought he was his roommate or something. So that trial is still going, and they’re still trying to get money from the police department for it. And now her mom might have lung cancer.

And let’s see. What traumatic things have happened to me? NOTHING. No one I’m really close to has died yet, no one I know is in jail or in financial trouble or anything like that. My parents are divorced, but that’s it. And it was a pleasant enough divorce, and they get along. My dad and my step-dad even get along and chat when my dad stops by sometimes.

I guess I’m fortunate but I just feel so bad. How can so many bad things happen to one person and none to other people?

I think it’s fine to feel bad for her. But then I started feeling self-centered and guilty for everything that I complain about, since I obviously don’t have much reason to complain when you look at my life compared to hers. But I was so stressed and tired and PMS-ing last night that I just wanted to complain and needed someone to talk to and complain to. And now I feel like I can’t ever complain in front of Dahlia because she’s probably thinking the same thing I’m thinking, that I don’t have that hard of a life. And I just felt like I had no one to talk to and even if I had talked to anyone, I would have been complaining and I felt like that made me a bad person or something. I still kind of feel that way. I shouldn’t even be complaining about anything is how I feel but eh. It made me feel crappy. Which made me go in circles even more because it’s not me I should be feeling bad for. I don’t know!!

Anyway. It’s sad. Hopefully it’s not cancer.

Oh geez, Dahlia made the saddest comment. She was like, “My eyes hurt.” And Kristen asked why, and she said, “Crying. I’ve done a lot of it this week.” Aww. 😦 😦 😦

I don’t know what to say to her. When people I know better tell me things like this, like when Marina used to call me crying at least once a week, I would know what to say because I knew her so well and felt more comfortable around her. I really like Dahlia but I don’t know her THAT well, I mean I’ve only known her since like October. I just don’t know what to say when she brings that up. I doubt she wants that I-feel-sorry for you look, but what else can I do? Not that she has really come to me or anything. She’s pretty private. But I mean when she just makes little comments like that, I don’t know what to say.

Enough about that, though … it’s too depressing …

Oh, I dropped my ipod on Monday. Which I had done before (see! This seems so trivial now!) but it had always been fine. But this time the screen broke pretty much. Only a quarter of the screen was visible, the rest was just blank. Like … frozen. It still played but I couldn’t see what was playing.

So my step-dad took it in to the Apple store the next day and they gave me a brand new one for free! yay.

But to put all my music on it, I had to download the newest version of iTunes. Which i did, but it needs quicktime to go with it, and whenever I try to download quicktime it won’t download and says there’s an error. So I can’t open itunes which means I can’t update my ipod and it’s frustrating. I don’t know what to do.

And I HAVE to figure it out before I go to Spain for spring break because there is no way I’m surviving that whole DAY of flying without my ipod.

Spain, by the way, is in ONE WEEK. I’m so excited.

There’s so much I have to do before then though.

I need to … pack, fix my ipod, make sure my ATM card works, buy stuff that I need to take, finish all my school work which is A LOT, and do things that I’m going to miss next Friday when I’m absent.

This weekend … well, Kristen is going out of town for a brides-maids thing or something. So I’m going to be home alone. Dahlia was going to come over tomorrow night and stay with me, but that was before the whole thing with her mom happened, so I don’t know where that stands now. If she doesn’t want to I totally understand, and I don’t want her to feel like she has to. I don’t want her to be here if she doesn’t want to be.

Then on Saturday I have the SAT. UGH.

Saturday night is Fer’s birthday party … it’s a sleepover. I need to get her a present before then.

And yeah … *sigh* I’m stressed out.


25 March
I feel blah and I don’t know what to do about it to make myself feel better.

I don’t know who to talk to because I don’t really know what to say.

I just feel all stressed out and I don’t know why. It’s not even about school. It’s about school and my friends and my family and just everything.

I tried to talk to Katherine a little but she didn’t really get what I was trying to say so her advice didn’t really make sense, and I didn’t feel like explaining it again.

I’m not used to this. Every time I’m stressed out it has to do with school and it’s something really … tangible. Like if I just do the work and get it over with, then I’m not stressed out anymore. But this, there is like no reason really for me to be this stressed out so I don’t know what to do to make it go away.

I just feel like … with my friends … I’m really drifing apart from Eta and Michelle and Elyse. That’s not even the main thing though, I don’t know. I haven’t really talked talked to them in awhile, and haven’t hung out with them outside of school in … let’s see … Michelle: two weeks. Eta: well I saw her at the Showing on February 11th but we didn’t really hang out, so before that January 29th. Elyse: three weeks. (I know these dates ’cause I’m OCD like that and I write down everything I do on my calendar … ) THAT IS JUST TOO LONG. Especially for Eta. Almost two months?!?!? I feel like I can hardly consider her one of my good friends any more. 😦

I could hang out with Eta tonight, ’cause we were texting earlier about how we want to but she’s another friend’s. And Michelle is maybe having people over, and Marina is supposed to call me about that but she hasn’t. Plus I think I’m watching a movie with Katherine ’cause it’s her last night.

And I’m just getting really sick of Vanni. And not of them, but of hanging out with Marina Lucy Devon and Brent all the time. I love them, but yeah.

Vanni’s just … confusing and seems so premeditated sometimes and I don’t know. I’m just sick of her. I need to like, not hang out with her at all until Spain so that I can take her.

I feel like just sleeping right now but then the sooner I go to sleep the sooner I have to get up and the sooner it’s Sunday and Katherine is gone and I have to do homework and go back to school. 😦

And Kristen … god. Today for my mom’s birthday celebration, well Kristen was at her friend’s wedding earlier so she came home and was DRUNK and so annoying. I kept laughing at her and rolling my eyes and making fun of her, because EVERYone was, how could you not?? And she was all, “Corinne! Don’t make fun of me or I’ll tell ALL YOUR SECRETS!” GOD. She’s just so annoying when she’s drunk and I’m not (LOL). I just couldn’t stand her.

AND, Every time it’s my mom’s birthday or Christmas, she always buys my mom a ton of stuff or really nice stuff and makes me and Katherine look bad. 😦

I’m just really … BLAH right now. I don’t know why. It feels like everything is just piling up and it probably isn’t even that bad but it’s the mood I’m in. PMS maybe.

And then Kristen like YELLED so the whole house could hear, “Corinne I’ll be here next weekend so we should have a party!” And ugh now my mom is gonna be all suspicious.

That’s another thing, I can’t really talk to my mom anymore. I can’t tell her about half the things going on my in my life if they have to do with drinking. So that sucks. I want to talk to her right now … but I don’t know. I feel weird.

And like I was saying last entry I really want a boyfriend. I feel pathetic that I’ve never had one. I feel like Marina and Fer and Vanni are all gonna be talking about boy stuff and not want to include me or something. And at least Elyse and Michelle and Eta are in the same boat as me, but at least Elyse and Michelle are/have been CLOSE to having boyfriends, like they’ve had “things” with guys or whatever. Eh I don’t know.

Did I mention Vanni and Matt had sex? Well they did. Oh she hasn’t told me though. GREAT! I’m so glad she feels like she can talk to me. It’s about time though because they’ve gone out for over a frickin’ year. She didn’t tell me OR Marina, she told Brent of all people who told Marina who told me. It’s just insulting that Vanni doesn’t feel like she can tell me stuff.

Oh and now apparently Kristen wants us to come get her drunk ass from the bar because she is tired. Because I REALLY want to be around her more right now.

Sorry for all the complaining. I just needed to.

beddy bye

24 March
Today was pretty good.

Let’s see …

Vanni is getting a bit too intense to take. Me and Marina, and me and Fer were both talking about her. Not like in a bad way, just how she can be kind of intense. We still love her and everything, but yeah. She’s just a lot first thing in the morning.

In pre-calc we had a quiz, and this ALWAYS happens to me and it’s so annoying! I always take the quiz and think I did fine and then when I’m talking about it with people later I realize I did a few problems wrong. And they’re only out of 10 or 15 or 20 usually (15 this time) so I can’t afford to miss many to still get an A! I think I could get 13 or 14 out of 15 this time, which is still good.

At lunch me and Fer always have these heart-to-heart talks. 🙂 I love it. She’s getting really easy to talk to. and I’m getting really comfortable around her.

Lately I’ve noticed about myself that every time people don’t open up to me or like to tell me things or anything, it bothers me. Like how Vanni never tells me anything, and Kristen. And I want to be here for Dahlia but I don’t know how.

I don’t know if I’ve just gotten used to being a person people come to talk to or what. And I just like having that role, and people trusting me. So I wish Kristen and Vanni and other people would do that, too.

About how I was saying I want to be here for Dahlia … well, I don’t know what’s wrong with her really but I was reading Kirsten’s texts (I know I’m a bad person =\ ) and she had some from Dahlia just talking about how Dahlia is stressed out lately and nothing is stopping it. And she doesn’t feel connected or something, and she doesn’t want to talk to anyone. I don’t know just all this stuff. I want to be here for her if she wants but I don’t really know how to let her know. I probably just won’t do anything. And the anniversary of her brother’s death is coming up on the 31st, so that’s always sad. 😦

In other news …

I also had a APUSH quiz today and it was … okay.

Then in TA I spent the whole time looking up places we’re going in Spain. I’M JUST SO EXCITED. I haven’t looked up our other hotels yet but I will … I just looked at like what temperatures are in Spain this time of year (I think like 70s) and some of the touristy places we’re going. ahhh two weeks from today!!!

Then after school I hung out with Marina, Lucy, Devon, Brent, and Vanni. It’s like the group now. Brent brought his motorcycle here and showed us … it’s cool I guess? But I’m not gonna pretend to know anything about motorcycles.

By the way I don’t like Brent. I decided. Just to let you know. I do really want a boyfriend but I feel like there’s no options. Usually I’m complaining (or feeling sad) about how the guy I like doesn’t like me or something. But right now there isn’t even anyone I WANT to like. So I don’t know …

Then me and Marina went downtown and everyone else did other stuff. No one hangs out anymore. But me and Marina talked and everything and it was good.

I got Rolling Stone with Simon, Randy & Paula on the cover, and a birthday present for my mom. How exciting?

And then I came home and hung out with Kristen & Dahlia a little bit but they’re going to bed soon and I am too …

don’t worry, be happy.

23 March

Happenings of this week:

-I have 98% in APUSH, and it’s the second highest grade in the class (Elyse has 100% grr), and there are only 5 As. So yay for that!

-On Monday Vanni approached me and said she doesn’t want to be in a room with Charla for Spain. I basically told her she can do whatever she wants to make that happen just as long as Charla doesn’t know and doesn’t feel excluded and it doesn’t put me in a position I don’t want to be in. I don’t know though. It kind of pissed me off because it’s SPAIN and we’re going to be having fun no matter what and we’re not in middle school so there should be no drama like this.

-Today Brent asked me to borrow $80 … see, the $200 before (that I never ended up giving him) was to buy his motorcycle, he was that much short. And then this was for something having to do with the motorcycle but I don’t really know how to explain it. And I gave it to him … after a lot of convincing. First he called me and I was like, “Um … ” unsure. Then he CAME to my house to try and convince me and promise me he’ll pay me back. He said I was the first person he called (aw) but then when I didn’t call him back he called other people and no one else would either … then we were just talking in the family room and he kept being like, “Pleeease Corinne, you know I’ll pay you back … ” And I was being convinced and then just to make sure he literally picked me up and carried me upstairs and set me on my bed to get my wallet, LOL.

He is getting paid on the 6th and he promised me like a million times that he will pay me back then. And I trust him. And people can and will think I’m stupid for doing that, but it is what it is. I know $80 seems like a lot but … I would spend that much on clothes. So why not lend it to a friend? I just don’t know what I’m going to tell my mom because she watches my bank accounts and she will probably notice, and probably wouldn’t approve.

In other news … Kristen and Dahlia got back from Disneyland on Tuesday. But I haven’t seen Dahlia yet. She ended up not coming over that night. Maybe she will tonight, but she would probably be here by now. If not tonight then probably tomorrow. I want to see her, it’s been almost a week! Last night she texted me and said she missed me, aw. 🙂

I think that is all the important things … I have a pre-calc quiz and a APUSH quiz tomorrow, meh. And a Chem test on Monday. So that kinda sucks. But oh well. Be happy.

It means that I, like God, do not play with dice and I don’t believe in coincidences.

19 March
This weekend I hung out with Marina, Lucy, Devon, Brent, and Vanni at first, but that was kinda boring …

Then I had a Spain meeting. I leave in less than three weeks!! I’m so excited. I can’t believe it’s so soon.

Then, I decided to hang out with Katherine and her friends at our house. It was pretty fun! I like it when someone else (Katherine or Kristen) has parties at our house because then it’s still MY house but I don’t have to worry about my friends throwing up or anything …

Katherine’s sorority sisters are okay. I have 2 that are my favorites. 🙂

On Friday I went downtown with Katherine and her friends. I got a little annoyed though, because Katherine is SOO slow. I bought a pink t shirt from American Eagle, yay …

Then we dropped her friends off, and went out to dinner with our aunts. They wanted to see Katherine while she’s in town. So that was yummy?

Then Katherine and I came back home and figured out what to do …

For me it was either go hang out with Marina, Lucy, Devon, and Brent. OR Stay home. OR go out with Katherine and her high school friends.

I decided on the last one.

So Katherine and I pre-funked here a little … which was weird because I’m not used to doing that at MY house since my parents are usually here. But they were STILL out of town.

Then Katy and Elle picked us up and we met up with 2 other girls (all HS Friends of Caitlin’s. They’re nice).

So they had this friend who was having a party outside of town, not exactly that close. But we decided to go because Katherine wanted to hang out with them, so whatever they were doing she was willing to do.

It took like AN HOUR to get to there, and then we got to the house and there were like five people there! gah. We had a glass of champagne, which I had never had before and I didn’t like it. At all. And then we left because it was boring …

Took another hour to drive BACK. We dropped the friends off because they were doing something else, and went to Katherine’s friend’s house, who was supposedly having a party, too.

But we got THERE and there were only like 5 people there! WTF. But it wasn’t as bad that time because Katherine actually knows Kaylan. So we hung out there for awhile.

But we weren’t even there for that long because Katy wanted to go home, and she was our driver, so she dropped Katherine and I off at home.

We got home and realized we were both starving … so we went to a food place which is open until 2 and it was like 1:55 LOL. Katherine drove, she wasn’t very drunk at all (neither was I, but I probably was more than her). And it’s is really close to our house.

We just got fries and then came home and ate. Then after the fries were gone I decided I wanted a sandwich and Katherine made herself waffles.

And then we had like an hour long heart-to-heart conversation. We talked about college and what I want in the college I go to. Which led us into talking about her school. And sororities. And her sorority. And majors. And how I want to do psychology.

It was a very nice conversation. 🙂 I wasn’t like woo-hoo-crazy-party-drunk, but I guess I was drunk enough to be a little more open when we were talking. I probably wouldn’t have talked to her for that long if I was sober.

So overall, the night was an adventure. It was fun … but probably not as fun as Thursday night. And I have no pictures from Friday.

On Saturday I got up and walked around the lake with Charla. Ah, memories of Summer! It was a nice walk and talk and catch-up.

Then I came home, went tanning with Katherine, and went to a mall to go shopping some more.

I got four shirts:

-this white shirt that I bought because it made me look tan. It’s like sweatshirt material, and has a hood and a pocket in the front, but it’s way v-neck (have to wear a tank top under it) and three-quarter length sleeves.
-a red v neck t shirt.
-a gray tank top with lace at the top and bottom.
-a gray and white striped polo t shirt.

So that trip was a success. By the time I got home, I was so tired from walking around the lake (three miles!) and walking all around the mall. So all I felt like doing was hanging out with some girls and watching a movie or something.

I ate dinner with my family, then went to Marina’s.

Me, Marina, and Lucy talked about a lot of things.

First, about the latest thing at our school right now … this guy who graduated in my sister’s grade committed suicide last weekend. He was friends with so many people. Like everyone I talk to knew him and loved him it seems like.

He was dealing coke and was in trouble with that, and people say he was in a gang. He wasn’t really doing anything with his life … he hanged himself with an extension cord in an abandoned warehouse. 😦

It’s just really sad. His funeral was yesterday. This girl who is a senior right now went out with him and had broken up with him like two weeks before he killed himself, so she is a complete wreck. She hasn’t been at school. And she’s a cheerleader … and the national cheerleading competition is right now, and she didn’t go and they had to edit their routine the day before they left.

I guess he was like full of coke when they found him.

I don’t know … just really sad.

Then Marina brought up that last summer her mom was going to kill herself. She had not told me that before, wow. I guess Marina’s mom had it all planned out and was going to do it where she was house-sitting and would have done it if Marina hadn’t ended up going with her.

That’s got to be so hard. Her mom is getting better, though …

On a completely different subject (well, still the subject of Marina), she also told me that … on Thursday night, she gave Devon a hand job.

WHILE Lucy and Brent were in the room, and they didn’t know. LMFAO. I’m glad I didn’t go.

This is what happened I guess: they were under a blanket, and Lucy and Brent were asleep (they were all watching a movie). Marina had her hands on her lap, and Devon was like caressing her hands and then moved her hands to his lap and kind of guided her to do it? I don’t really know … I didn’t ask for ALL the details. Then she just finished it I guess …

LOL Lucy was SO weirded out by it. I think it’s hilarious. But I wonder what is going to happen now. Michelle CAN’T find out, after what happened last time. I wonder when Marina and Devon will hook up again …

Anyway!! Then we all went and saw V for Vendetta. It was really, really good. I don’t even really like those types of movies that often, but it was good.

We saw and sat with Vanni, Matt, Elyse, Riley, and Dion there, too.

I got home at like midnight, and had a snack with Katherine and then we watched some OC. Then I went to bed …

And that was my weekend! It was good. And LONG. I love three-day weekends.

But now I have to do homework. 😦

Kristen and Dahlia are in Disneyland until Tuesday. I miss them! But at least Katherine’s here until they get back.

Okay … off to homework …